Sounds

Today as I walked into the restroom at work, I walked past a wall of cubes where someone was starting up their computer. The familiar Windows starting chime went off and I found myself thinking it was "my" computer. :) You know, because only my computer makes that familiar sound.

One thing I do know that sounds different from so many others is the sound of my car starting. It's such a familiar sound, and so reassuring. I remote-start my car each day as I walk toward it. Most every day I hear it, before I see it. Every day, I'm not sure why, I hesitate the moment before it starts. Maybe I drove junkers for far too long or something, but it's as though I hold my breath each time.

Hearing my car start is a good thing.

Milestones

Gavin can snap his fingers, and told me the other day that when he grows up he wants to drive an army tank.

Derek wrote his name and is now signed up for Kindergarten in the fall.

Tyler's saying a ton of words and can throw one heck of a fit when he doesn't get his way.

Hanging up the bikes

Last week sometime, we were cleaning out my garage and took the time to hang up the bikes. As we were doing so, I kept myself from saying the words that I wished we could go for one more ride. It seemed so "final" for the season to be putting them up.

I wondered to myself... ok, so you think you didn't take enough bike rides this summer? Why not?? What stopped you, in all the wonderful days that you had? Why are you hoping today for one last ride, when you could have had dozens earlier.

Huh.

Good thought to ponder, and motivate myself to "take more rides", whatever that ride may be, when the time presents itself. I know what it felt like to want one more ride as we were hanging up the bikes, what about all the other "rides" that I forego in life? What will it feel like when I've run out of time for them?

Getting Old

I really must be getting old, or having a mid-life crisis or something. It seems like every time I turn around these days I'm thinking of some vegetable I could be growing and/or canning. Realize, though, that I don't have a garden nor a canner. I grew up with both, though, and have parents and In-Laws who still do both. (And I'm able to enjoy a bounty of IL's handiwork.)

Maybe it's because I don't have a garden or something, but for some reason, I want one. Bad.

I still think I'm getting old.

Team Lead

Hmmm... turns out that there's a Team Lead position available in our group. We have about 55 people in our Dev group, and someone higher up the chain left. A team lead took her place, and so the team lead position is open. Applicaitons are due tomorrow.

Interesting to think about being a Team Lead. What would it take to be a team lead? Could I be a team lead? Would I want to be a team lead??

If I don't want to be a team lead, what do I want to be?

Of course, I have a gajillion things going on in my life right now that could possibly conflict with any aspirations of moving up the feeding chain, but I'm still curious as I'm a natural leader. I have no problem just "taking charge" in just about any situation. Oh, and not taking charge in a bossy sort of way, but in an organizing/planning sort of way.

Wellness

At work, we're having Wellness week. For me, it may as well be called Guilt Week. lol

I weigh too much. Not grossly too much in my eyes, but I'm beyond the "overweight" BMI classification and am in the "obese". All my other numbers look good (bp, choloesterol, etc). Just that darned weight.

At one event, there was a thing you could put on that would show you how 20 more pounds would feel. I want the one that shows me how much better 20 LESS pounds would feel. I feel good. Would any improvements in myself be worth the effort to lose 20lbs? Since no one can tell me, I'm talking myself into trying it.

I've weighed this much forever, for at least 10 years, I peeked at my doctor's chart so I know for a fact, and I'm all about facts. Ok, I weighed a little more when pg, but oddly, not much more. All three times, I've come back to rest comfortably at this weight. I have no idea what it would be like to weigh less. I might have to try it.

Personal Growth

I think I'm doing really well. Of course as soon as I say that, something's bound to happen to make it not true, but I'm definitely feeling the 2-steps-forward type of momentum right now instead of those pesky backwards ones.

Tyler's almost sitting up. Derek and Gavin are doing well. I've gotten some work done on my woodchips by the back patio and the side of the house. I even planted some petunias already.

I've got my eye on some outdoor patio chairs... and am trying to figure out if I really should buy them or not. Money doesn't grow on trees, but golly, I *want* to splurge a bit.